Drove into the city today to have brunch with a girlfriend who I have not seen in over 6 months. We talked about what has been going on in our lives and then she tells me... She is BiPolar and has been for three years. I was neither shocked nor dismayed just genuinely concerned. We talked about the dark days, the rollercoaster afternoons and the suicidal evenings. I am not sure why I did not see the signs since it draws on the  same field as my career. Did I not want to see it? I felt as though her explanation of the torment and rage she encountered was clearly raw and recent. Would she later wonder why she told me. We laughed for a while and then said our goodbyes. I got in my car and drove through Golden Gate park. What a beautiful day, a little windy but, the sun was shining and I continued to the great hwy headed home. What an amazing place I live, what an amazing life I have, what an amazing day. I feel lucky today. I am glad she is getting healthy again. She laughs as if noone is in the room, makes me feel so humble.

Caught me by surprise! She stopped by the office today to repay a Superbowl bet, which I thought might have just been a friendly exchange of who really was going to win. She saw me with some colleagues having coffee and yells "I have something for you!" I stated back "Oh I know you do!" I got up and she followed me to my office. She shoves $100 bucks in my pocket and I thought for a moment how forward of her and then I thought....How absolutely fucking brave of her! She read a card which was on my desk, that went along with 30 beautiful tulips. She inquired briefly about the flowers then had to leave. She called later more inquisitive then before. My cell phone happens to be on my business card so I am driving home and another call. "Let's have lunch next friday?" I said ok. What do I want from her? I don't know her from Adam! This is just our third meeting. But, whatever the case, I smiled today. Today on Valentines day.